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 Good morning, on I wrote these stories and letters a few years ago. some are connected but, out of order on my blog. I hope you can understand them. I thought I can put them in order It won't let me.

Dear Lead Angel

I received your letter. You are the best lead angel I have had you have brought more souls than anyone else. but because of your past when you were down, desperate, and feeling lost you invited me in.

You will come back again to stay with us from your sins that you committed. You have signed your soul to me.

Thank you for the journey you had with us until we meet again.

Sincerely,

Lucifer

By EarthAngel 

Lil’ Big brother

Congratulations to you and have a blessed life in New York on your way to your new dimension in life as my Pastor always says.  I love you very much as our parents went their separate ways we grew closer together. We know what one another thinks cry when I am not feeling well you pray for me we pray for each other.  I dreamed of doing what you’re doing I live through my kids especially you.

You are living my dreams going to college, traveling, and doing other things that I’m not able to do right now.  Do you remember we used to fight all the time because I didn’t want you under me all the time? I always tried to have good intentions to influence you.  I know you influence me, more by being a wonderful brother and being a young handsome intelligent Christian black brother you are.  You have your whole life ahead of you still. A lot of people look up to you even your nephews they want to do everything you do Tony wants to be athletic like his uncle and Breion wants to emulate his uncle too.

They told me that they want to go to college to get a good job after and then get married and have kids later but, education is first.  Even older people including mom she wants to go back to school but, she’s hesitating on going because you keep telling her about those 10-20 page reports you did.  Do you realize how special you are!  People always say you’re a man of God.  I hope you are enjoying your party that Mom and I are giving you.  You only live once enjoy it while you can.  I love you and don’t forget that, ok.

 

                                                   Love Your,

                                                            Big lil’ sister

Dear Journey

I once stood among powerful shadows, a leader in a circle not meant to hold me forever. I have carried the support, the lessons, and the weight of that place—but now I step away. Though our souls forged strength together, I cannot guide others into that path. I would not recommend it to any soul. I leave with clarity, not regret.

And yet, I have longed for a light beyond that realm. I have imagined myself standing before it, knowing the path will demand patience, faith, and work. I carry questions within me, questions I hope to ask with wisdom and trust, seeking not power, but understanding.

I am grateful for every moment of this journey—for the shadows I have known, for the hope that beckons, and for the space to grow toward what is true.

And I hear now a voice, gentle yet firm: You were seen, considered, and valued. Though your past raises concern, your journey matters. You may still come closer, not yet to dwell, but to approach—repent, transform, and walk nearer to what is light.

I hold this in my hands: the leaving, the seeking, the reception. I am both child and creation, both Lead Angel and EarthAngel, learning to honor where I have been, and where I am called to go.

With gratitude for the path and the guidance yet to come,

Your Child, Your Creation
Lead Angel, EarthAngel

Faith

An angel came down to earth from heaven.  The angel saw a young lady who felt her pain.  The angel entered the young lady's human body.  Her name is Chamya; everyone calls her Mya for a nickname. The angel wanted to live Chamya’s life to feel her pain.  Mya stopped and felt the presence of the angel.  She was in her mid-20’s she didn’t have faith for a while.  For years Mya questioned things in her life.  She always wanted to know if she had a different life.

Mya knew it wouldn’t be the same.  Her fantasy life could be better or it could be worse.  Would she live out of state and dream of the things she always wanted to do?  The worst thing that could happen is she gives up on life because she wouldn’t have faith.  The angel wanted to get rid of Mya’s pain.  The angel wanted to show all the blessings that she would have if she had faith.  Mya believed but she needed a little faith.  She believed in God Mya went to church praising God as a little girl with her parents.  Mya’s parents told her to always have faith and never forget who you are Chamya Adia Golden I named you that name for a reason.  It means you have “a gift”.  It was time for her to start high school.  It was Mya's freshman year.  Her surroundings started to change.

She was loved Mya knew it the faith she had taken her to a whole other level.  She didn’t have faith anymore she believed in Jesus she prayed and prayed.  Mya's family wasn’t reading the bible often so she didn’t read the bible.  She tried to read it she wasn’t focused enough to be a young Christian.  She had problems like every other teenager she was quiet about her while her friends told her about their problems.  She listened to their problems while she was thinking about her own.  Mya was a good listener she gave them advice and her own opinion but never tried to question them or tell them what to do.

Mya should have listened to her own advice.  Her problems were adding to more problems she wasn’t doing Christian things.  She felt everyone else had their own problems so why should they care about hers?   Maybe some people cared she didn’t listen to her inner voice saying “stop doing what you've been doing come to me where you belong this is Jesus”.  Three years later Mya became a junior in high school.  Mya was changing her life she changed her ways to become a better person.  She was going to church every Sunday she was doing what her parents raised her to be.  A year went past Mya graduated from school.

She was undecided whether she wanted to go to college or not.  Mya had too much drama at home.  She signed up for spring classes she dropped out because she couldn’t focus.  Her lack of faith was interred fearing for her life.  A few years later went by Mya didn’t have a job she had all these things on her mind that she wanted to do.  She had a gift she didn’t realize she had a gift Jesus gave her.  Mya thought people wouldn’t support her or lie about what she loves to do.  She was scared to share her dreams, telling her stories.

She believed her life would get better most people did support her and others didn’t.  One day Mya was eating on the patio at home that’s when the angel felt her praying for help she said “Show me a sign I need your presence Jesus I know you will answer my prayers.  Thank you.  Amen”.  That’s when the angel took over Mya’s body.  She knew it was Jesus she hasn’t felt his presents in a while.  The angel showed blessings Mya already had.  The angel stepped out of Mya’s body the angel told her Be thankful to be living you have family who love you.  You are here to help people.  God gave your life as a gift that he gave you to use.  Everyone has a purpose in life.  Mya realized she is a gift from God she knew what God wanted her to do tell her story about an angel sent from heaven to her to have faith again. All you have to do is have faith and believe in him.

 

By EarthAngel    

GODMOTHER

There are so many things to say about a Godly woman as you.  Where should I begin? Oh, I know when you walk into a room you shine like a diamond and glow like the stars above.  You are wonderful person and have a lot of love for everyone.  There are sparkles in your eyes when you talk about our father.  Your favorite saying is “I'm blessed, I'm already blessed I know I’m going to heaven.”  Jesus told me when I come back I have a place in heaven.  You’re a God fearing woman who loves the Lord.  You are a magnet attached to us and we never want to let you go. Most of us look up to you to give us guidelines telling us to believe in ourselves and we can do anything what we put our minds to do.  You have a special someone that bows down to your feet.  Of course I’m talking about your husband.  You are a Queen to him, but you always will be a Princess to our HEAVENLY FATHER.

 

Sincerely EarthAngel

Past, Present, and Future

In the present, can't focus on the future, because I am stuck in the past. It so hard being in the present. My life flashing before my eyes so fast I can't keep up. As the years went by, I knew I was going to have challenges throughout the years. Wondering would life will be in the future. I always wondered; how would my life be. I think about things from my past saying, if I was on the same first chapter will it be the same story.

I'm going to the 2nd chapter, the 3rd chapter as the story continues, I'm still thinking about the first chapter. It's a new story being told. Wait. What about the other story? I want to know what happens. It's better than the first story. I said. No, it won't. My next story is different from the story before. It's hard getting through this chapter to get to the next chapter. I'm struggling with this chapter trying to pay attention to my chapter, to be honest, I don't want to. Imagining how's my life on this page. Asking myself why? Why am I doing this? Why is it hard to understand? Why I can't stay away from the past?

I am going chapter to chapter missing pages I haven't been through yet. I need to find those pages in my life. There are so many questions need to be answered. Feeling empty with pages not there. Shutting myself out. The pages might be there just don't want it to be in this chapter. Overlooking the pages what to feel in my own story. Why, now. What's next? I believe I'm doing what I'm supposed to do. I feel incomplete with the pages missing. I'm asking myself, will there be another story?

Am I going back to the first story I started with to see to finish the chapters or if see will it change again? I'm keeping this story to see if it stays the same or changes. We say let's see what happened in the last chapter before we start at the beginning. If I have my own story I will be lost. Trying to do the beginning over. Where would I start? Are the pages being torn from my life? How will it end? Redoing my own story my life be torn. I will still think about my first story. The chapters I passed is the best part of the story.

By EearthAngel

About Me

I'm a Christian who loves the Lord He's number 1 in my life. He holds my heart in his hands. I have two wonderful boy's young men who love me to death. One brother who's my best friend. I have four people in my life. My mother, my step-father, my grandmother, and my Godmother. If you ask my mother about me she will say I'm an intelligent and strong person. My stepfather told me to keep the faith. My grandmother showed me how to forgive and love people, and also forget the bad things that happened until the moment she died. And my Godmother reminds me not to ever give up.

I will say I'm an outgoing person who loves listening to people. Sometimes they only want to be heard. Especially the younger generation. Everyone who knows me says I'm kind, generous, and love what I do. I will do my best to answer every question and remind them how special they are. I tell them their families love them I tell them to ask their family about their generations so they can know where they came from. Everyone should have a visional for the future. I have a vision mine is to have a small business.

People come to express how they feel. People who come will learn from one another they're not alone. Each one of us is blessed, we have to focus on the future. You can do the same. I had to face my fears I'm still focusing on my future. There's a song by Mary Mary "Can't give up now". In the second vision, I want to write stories and plays. They inspire me to be myself, nothing can stop me. The children's happiness is unique in its special way. We're talented people we need to show the gift that we have,

By EarthAngel

Dear Child

I received your letter. You were many of the souls we highly considered, but because of your background check, we had concerns about you being with us.

My child thanks you for your journey with us. You can still come visit us by repenting of your sins.

Thank you for the journey from the beginning until now that we had with you.

Sincerely,

Heavenly Father

Jesus Christ

 

 

By EarthAngel

EMOTIONS

What is being numb? Numb is without feelings, being disconnected from everything, being numb is when you can't move, your body. Your whole body is paralyzed. Feelings are when you can't feel anymore. It's when you are dead inside but your heart is still pumping. Your soul leaves your body. It feels like you moving, your mind is telling you to do one thing, but your body telling you to do the opposite. Being numb is when you shut down to the point when your body controls you.

It feels like you're in a coma, you can hear what's around you. You hear yourself talking but the words won't come out. Emotionally numbness is when you don't want to do anything. You can't connect to what you normally do. My numbness is disconnecting me from my heart. Having trouble feeling again. Trying to keep up with the world, I'm getting further and further away. It is impossible to keep up with the world and I can barely keep up with myself. Sitting here waiting on life to come, not knowing how I will feel.

By EarthAngel

Dear Lord

In my journey, I've imagined myself of being here. This is what I dreamt of I know it's going to take a lot of work. I want to ask you so many questions.

Thank you for taking the time

 

Sincerely,

Your Child

Your Creation

 

 

By EarthAngel

Dear Lucifer

I will be resigning from being one of the strongest leaders of your group as soon as possible (ASAP).

The support and the opportunities you have shown me within the journey that you have taken in this short amount of time. You and our souls have made a powerful group together.

If you want me to do anything to help get you more soul leaders I wouldn't recommend it to any soul.

 

Sincerely,

 

Lead Angel

Your Leader Angel

 

 

By EarthAngel

ANGEL OF GOD

A troubled teenager went to a dark quiet room to pray telling Jesus to forgive him for his sins. Jesus heard Devon praying Jesus told Devon to open his eyes and he saw a waterfall. He loves waterfalls, Jesus knew he did, Devon went under the overflowing water feeling Jesus's presence. Devon closed his eyes and saw a vision of angels surrounding him. He wasn't trying to wash away his sins. He just loved the sound of waterfalls. Most people think they can wash their sins away underwater, but that's not true. Devon wanted to stand under the waterfall to feel God's tears.

The red raindrops fall from the sky. The red raindrops symbolize God's pain for Devon. About ten angels slowly turned around Devon, he felt the angels around him, and then he held his arms up as he looked up to the sky. He said, "Thank you." Thank you for, forgiving me of my sins. While listening to the angels singing Devon opened his eyes and saw two doves holding a scroll saying, "Angels of God". It was bright in the sky as Jesus' face appeared in the sky.

Tears came down Devon's face. Jesus let Devon feel how he was rejoicing in Devon's prayers. It's like a 1-year-old who dives into his 1st birthday cake. Jesus is excited when he hears our prayers. The bright light disappeared from the sky. The angels and the doves disappeared too. Devon went under the waterfall and closed his eyes, he was back in the same quiet dark room again. The waterfall was gone, Devon said, "I know you are answering my prayers and Jesus responds, "You are an angel of God."

 

By EarthAngel

God's Test

God tests you over and over and over with the same thing to see if you will understand what he's showing us. As we continue to ask him the same question why, why, why is it taking so long to answer us? We expect him to answer us while we pray or to give us a sign. Sometimes he'll give you a sign to let you know he hears us. Most of the time, he'll wait until you're ready to answer your prayers, even when you feel helpless and can't help other people who are asking for your help or need someone to lean on. You feel helpless when someone's sick or feeling down. You say to yourself; How can I help someone else; I can't help myself. Told God, I don't know what I'm supposed to do. What do I say? Saying, Please help me to help them. At that point, all you do is start praying.

Praying for other people to heal, to be safe, to get their blessings before you pray about your own blesses. When you feel hopeless that you don't feel like you have any more hope in yourself. You just want to give up on what you were hoping for your entire life. You give up on what you believe in no one. You're giving up on your family and friends who love you. You give up on life to the point that you want to end it. God will test you with simple things like right from wrong. What's good, what's bad? Will you still believe in him when things get hard for you? God will allow the Devil to test you to know whom you should listen to. God leads you to a blessed life as long as you stay on his path. He will allow the Devil to distract you from the right path when life gets hard for you. To see if you get back on the right path.

The Devil is telling you good things you want to hear. He'll tell you he'll buy you things that you've always wanted. He will promise you everything that you have been praying for. He will accept you as you are if you go on his path. God is calling your name saying, come back, come back you're a child of mine. There's no other person who can take you on the right path than I can. You hear God calling your name. You're thinking about all the ups and downs going on in your life. Thinking about what choices you made in your life. If I did what I wanted to do or what I was told to do to please people. If I did something wrong and I knew it was a sin, but I did it anyway, now I'm getting punished for it. If I'm living a double life, will I regret it? Thinking about whether I should give up on life or take control of my life again. Ignoring the most important person that's in my life

Ignoring God is the worst thing that I have ever done in my life. If anything goes bad or not the way I want to go the 1st thing I'm asking is, why? Why does this happen to me all the time? The same question, but different problems. God is saying, How can I help you when you're ignoring me? He said when I pray it's not sincere. You're ignoring me I'm giving you signs and answers to show you I'm listening, I'm with you every step of the way. By having you talk to someone by showing you things around you.

By EarthAngel

Facing Your Fears

Would you believe a person dreamt about a person about facing fears? Good vs Evil, you will think it's about you, but it isn't it's about someone else. The dream begins with a family and friends in the house doing what they normally do. There was a knock at the door and someone said, "Who's it?" But there was no response, as if someone was looking at a reflection in the mirror. They stared at each other. The Evil half said; I am you. I'm half of you. The Good half said, "Leave me alone I don't want to be you anymore." The Good half closed the door. The Evil half came in the door to take over the Good, not going to take over. Good began to Fight Evil yelling, at good. Evil pushes the door open. Everyone rushed to the door to help close it. Good began to pray, Evil we won't let you come in this house to destroy the Good.

The Good half doesn't or wants you. Jesus surrounded the house with the Good not the Evil. Put a shield on Good to protect from Evil. Thank you, Jesus, for helping Good overcome fear. Amen. Good half shuts the door on Evil. And said to evil, Don't come near my family and friends. The Evil left and waited for a year to see Good go back to his old ways. No. Good didn't go back to his old ways. Evil tried to trick Good into continuing to live this new life so that everything would go badly.

Good wasn't listening to Evil. Good told Evil to stay away and get out of my ear. Good looked up and said, "Thank you Jesus for not letting me get distracted on Evil half. I'm whole again. This is a real dream. Do you believe this could happen to you? Fear holds you back from moving forward. It's ok to be in the present. Remember Jesus says Don't stay in the past too long. For example: fear is when you are climbing up a ladder your heart racing rapidly. Now you're at the top you didn't look down. You're proud that you face your fear. Another better example: The bible says Peter walked on water.

Jesus told Peter to come to him. Don't be afraid. Peter was off focus because he took his eyes off Jesus. Peter wasn't facing his fear, He fell because he didn't do as Jesus told him. Your fears can be faced, just continue focusing until you overcome your fears.

 

By EarthAngel

Jealousy

God is jealous and the Devil is jealous as well. It started when the Devil was an angel in Heaven. He was the leader over all the angels doing everything that God asked him to do. The Devil was a great angel God trusted him. God started noticing little things weren't Godly. He told some of the other angels to be with him he told them he would give them whatever they wanted and more. God heard all the angels talking about what the Devil had said. He didn't want to believe it so he went to the Devil himself to ask him if it was true what he heard.

The Devil lied to God and told him that he was teaching the angels a new song. They must have forgotten all the words to the song "He will give them what they ask for their wings to help open the gates of heaven." God said, ok I like the song so he left it alone. The Devil asked God can he could help with the other groups. God said, Yes you can help with other leaders of their groups. This time God tested him because he made the Devil the main leader over all the leaders of their groups. He had everything planned what he wanted to do. Well, he thought he had everything planned but God already knew his plan. The Devil wanted to see if he could take half of God's angels. And he did take half of God's angels. God went to the Devil again asking him. Why are the angels going to him? The Devil answered back and said the angels have a surprise for you. 

Again God knew he was lying. He said to the Devil I know you lied to me the 1st and 2nd time if you lie to me again there will be a consequence and a punishment. He said Yes God I'm listening. He continues to do what he was doing. More angels went to the other angels to see what the main angel had a surprise for. It was time for God's surprise. The Devil asked an angel to tell God to get ready for his surprise the real surprise was telling everyone he was jealous of God and he wanted power. He wanted to be over God he wanted to be #1 not 2nd as he had always been. His own group of angels didn't know what he was up to. God spoke he said I told you there would be consequences and punishment.

The Devil asked what they were. God said I'm not telling you I will show you God stripped his wings. He said Strip my wings I don't care I am bigger and better than you. I am the head leader of all the angels in heaven. God said not anymore. The Devil said you can't take me away from what I'm best at. He kept talking and wouldn't let God speak. God spoke loudly you lied once, twice, three strikes you're out. I'm kicking you out of heaven. Far away from here go to the darkest area and never return. God asked the angels if they wanted to go with him. Part of the angels went with him.

God told him I am giving you a new name as soon as you go into darkness your name will be the Devil and those who go with you their names will be dark angels. All of them left heaven. The angels were wondering why God renamed their head angel The Devil and not Devil by itself. They asked the Devil why God changed their names. He answered God said he comes 1st he's about peace, love, and forgiveness. The Devil means he wants me last because I disrespect him. That's one reason he put the word in front of Devil and now you're dark angels because you followed me. The dark angels were saying they miss God and the other angels. It was too dark for them to see. Few dark angels remember God said to pray whenever they think of him. He heard them crying saying they wanted to go back and sorry for being disobedient God answered their prayers. Yes, you can come back to heaven. He let them be angels again.

The Devil was mad and jealous that the dark angels had left him. He was bored being in the dark he wanted more company. He tried skimming everything he could to get his dark angels back. Some dark angels stayed with him. You know the saying "It's boring as hell" or "It's dark as hell". The Devil did something about it. The Devil wanted a little light he had an idea he picked red for his color to make it noticeable in the darkness. That's how red fire became flames the other saying is "it's hot as hell" People exaggerate what they said there's no way anywhere on this planet it's hotter.

The Devil got evil-hatted torse and God. Angels obeying God and not him they were divided between good. The higher power the bad lower power even babies are jealous because they don't have the same toy and color. Grown people jealous of each other think they're better than the other person. If the Devil thought he wasn't better than God he wouldn't get kicked out of heaven. That is how jealousy began. Now it's up to us to put jealousy to an end.

 

 

By EarthAngel

Time to Stop Waiting

 Life is too short. People die every day not knowing if they're going to heaven or hell. When I was younger, I didn't understand what people saying, they were a person. Telling them everything going to be alright. Believe in Jesus. he has your back, I want to help you, I've been in that situation before. Telling you they know people who're doing wrong. I can tell; you are a good person because your family raises you to be a Christian. My favorite saying is "to stop doing wrong". "What you're doing is a sin". How in the hell they're doing the same thing, people irritate me with sayings. Do people need to listen to their advice? They can't judge you only God can judge you.

I know most people mean well, you can't listen to everyone it is confusing. God is the one you can trust. Be someone friend and talk, do everything together. Lean on one another when things happen, now you're dead your friends you thought were your friends. They're talking about you saying you weren't a Christian, you're going to hell. Talking and gossiping about you. You were conceded thinking you're better than everyone else. I say that to say this. Life is too short to see your whole life pass by. What you dreamt of doing because you will miss your blessings. Recently I was in the hospital I kept thing about my life. A close person to me was supposed to come to see me.

The next day she called. She said, "I'm not feeling good I'm sorry I can't see you today". I said, "I will talk to soon don't worry about me, go to the hospital". She said, "I love you". I said, "I love you too". One week later I got out of the hospital. I spoke to her. The following week she died I felt like I was going crazy because we promised each other that we were going to spend time together. I can't remember the last time I saw her. I wanted to shut everyone out and pray. It took her death to realize I'm throwing my life away. I ask myself why, why, why do I feel? I've lost my soul; I spirit all I have to is my flesh. I feel trapped in this world it's impossible to go back in the past to start over. I'm too busy focusing on the future to forget I'm in the present.

 

By EarthAngel

Writing Is In You

Someone asked me why I named myself EarthAngel on my stories. I said, because I'm an angel of God whom put me earth to cover his people trough the storms, up's and down's or who wants to be in his presents.  Even though we are all of child of God. The most important of all when we love to write.  We are all EarthAngels! He gave each everyone of us a gift in you to pull out things we didn't know what we have.  It's our imagination to write what we feel, do or see.

By EarthAngel

Psalm 150 vs 3-4 nkjv

3 Praise Him with the sound of the trumpet;

Praise Him with the lute and harp!

4 Praise Him with the timbrel and dance;

Praise Him with stringed instruments and flutes!

#DancingWithHarmony

Gm, today take the time to listen (don't talk just listen) to everything, every sound, every person to see what can you hear. Make it seem like you're blind without being disabled. WHAT DO YOU HEAR?

#Expression

#DancingWithHarmony

The Dark Side

I have a story. In my story I'm in it from the past until now, I'm done with my story. I was thinking of my past instead of the present. I went back to look through the chapters to see if any pages in my story were blank again. In the chapters in my story, the pages were missing. I'm going to the 2nd, 3rd, 4th, and 5th chapters as I continue to look through my story, the pages I thought were missing. They were blank as if I had closed my eyes and become blind. It was the other dark side of me that I hadn't seen in a long time. In some of the chapters, the pages were black.

I realized I have torn the pages out of my life because I didn't want the darkness of my life to be in my story. I want to find those pages in my life that I've torn out. I was looking and looking until I found them. They were torn and ripped. I tried to tape the ripped pages back into my story. I couldn't put half of my life into the story again. I still felt incomplete in my life trying to put my life as a whole again. Maybe these dark blank pages are in the chapters of my story. Asking, why? I don't know, why? I'm trying, I'm trying to put the ripped pages that have been torn out of my life that have been torn out. I stopped, and I said, I'm tired of this story. I'm done with this story. It's time to tell a new story. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done with my past and I'm taking advantage of it. I'm done talking to people who only want to talk to you when they want something. 

Chapter 1 let's start as far as l can remember. Can you relate to talking to someone you didn't want to talk to, but you wanted to be respectful? That's me. I knew I could've given more respect than I did. Over the years I was pulling myself away. The more I was around we talked. I'm not paying attention, but I listened thinking in my mind saying, Please finish this conversation. I'm hanging on by a thread ready to cut it. I'm going to regret it. I know I am. I'm cutting the thread. I'm done. When that time comes that's the risk I'm going to have to take.

Chapter 2 I have had the same friends ever since I was a child. Well, I thought they were my friends. From time to time I would see them. It never feels like they are bringing up what we did in the past. Who is together now? Why? We don't hang out anymore. Getting into my business. Asking me questions about my life. At the same time, they don't want me to know about theirs. I'm not better than them I just don't want to be around the same atmosphere as when I was younger. I'm done. Don't get me wrong. I like hearing from them now and then. I realize that my true friends don't have to talk to someone every day.

Chapter 3 Do you pray for someone to get out of your life because they're bringing you down? It happened to me. I prayed and prayed for this person to get out of my life. I prayed 3 times to get someone out of my life. The 1st time I prayed they came back. The 2nd time I prayed they came less. 3rd time I prayed. I prayed harder and harder. Asking. Why? Why? They won't get out of my life. Days went by. Weeks went by. I didn't see them anymore. I believed my prayers had been answered. At the same time. I was getting out of someone else's life. To whom I've been pleased to get their attention. My prayers backfired on me. The tables turned on me. I wanted one out of my life while I was going out of the other person's life. Watch what you pray for because you get the opposite.

Chapter 3 I'm done with people walking on me like I'm a doormat. People call me just to talk I listen. When they want to tell me what they're going through I listen. People call me. In the morning, at noon even in the middle of the night. That's me being patient. People fail to realize I'm not a recorder. I'm supposed to listen and not supposed to talk. I can't push the pause button on the recorder whenever I want to talk. I'm pushing the stop button. It is stuck! I'm pushing and pushing. I can't get it unstuck. What can I do to get it to unstick? I'm trying to push the push button again this time it worked. I said I'm done, being a recorder. They're shocked that those words were coming out of their mouth. They said I didn't know that you felt that. I said, Yes, I feel like that because you never let me talk. I'm done being your recorder.

In chapter 4 of the previous chapter I said, Watch what you're praying for. Thiers someone I wanted to be in my life. It seems as if I didn't exist anymore in their’s. Over the years we became more distant from each other. I couldn't believe it; this is happening to me. After all these years I thought we were doing well. Well, I thought we were. I'm tired of trying to figure it out. I'm done trying too.

Chapter 5 I'm done, with people asking me for advice. They go to someone else they would rather take their advice instead. They get their advice instead of my opinion. They realize they should've listened to their mind at first. They come back to me to say, I should've listened to you. No. I told you to listen to your own mind. Nobody should tell you anything that you should do with your life.

In this story, a lot of my life is going to change throughout these chapters. In my other story, my life was incomplete. The pages were missing. It wasn't the whole story of my life. It told one side and not the other. You need to tell the whole story.

By EarthAngel 

Golden Ticket

I appreciate what you do for me from the biggest to the smallest. Everything you want I will give it to you. Let me take you under my wing to teach you how to be a strong person so you can show other people that they can be leaders as well.  I am the fire and soul of your life. I am an angel whom no one will ever forget. I'm everywhere. Everywhere you look I am there. Harmonizing your name all you have to do is by saying YES and I'll take you to the moon and back.

Sincerely, Your Dark Angel 

P.S. Surprise this Lucifer with this golden ticket you're going to hell, hahaha

By EarthAngel

In My Closet

Is my closet different from yours? No, it's not. I have the same closet as everyone else. Closets are for putting clothes in. Instead, we have skeletons, secrets, and lies buried deep in our closets. I have secrets in my closet. I won't let anyone judge me because I'm too busy judging my own life. Yes, I do tell lie after lie to hide the secrets I have. My closets aren't always dirty. Some are clean, which I promise to keep.

Some people don't care what's in their closet. Others have a conscience that's eating them alive. I figure that when my secrets come out, that's just how it is. What can I do or say? Nothing. I can't get mad; I can't be sad; I can't be in more pain than everyone else. If my family and friends ask me about my secrets, I'll tell them you can't trust or believe everyone who asks. I won't feel relieved. People say, "What's in the dark comes to light." People sit and wait for your secrets to come out while they're still denying their own closets.

 Sometimes I break my promises. I am not perfect; the man up above is. Skeletons are jumping out of my closet that I had forgotten I had. I thought I buried them a long time ago. I don't understand when people say they want to forget a person or something that happened; that's impossible - you can't block anything out of your mind later. It's a habit to talk about my life, not with others intentionally. My friends and I will talk about anything, and the next thing you know, all my secrets have come out. I'm not ashamed or embarrassed by certain people. If you don't want your business exposed, they will tell the whole universe the first chance they get. I have more than one closet. I try not to think about what's in my closet - all the lies I've told, the secrets I've hidden, along with the skeletons I've covered up. I can't get away from all my sins. I've dreamt that each skeleton pulls me away one by one in different directions. I love looking in the mirror at myself. Most of the time, I see my flesh melting, and my skeleton is laughing at my reflection, saying, "Look at yourself with the pain and hurtfulness in your closet." I closed my eyes for one minute, then opened them again. It seemed like nothing happened.

I look in the mirror every time and say, "One more time, I can do this." Whoever comes my way, I am prepared for it. With my sins and secrets following behind me, it's harder to live my life day by day. I try not to rain without the rainbow coming out. If the rainbow doesn't come out after it rains, it feels like Jesus saying He doesn't forgive you. Nobody wants to know that feeling. I remind myself that the man above is judging me, definitely not anyone else.

I used to think that when people die, do they see everything I do? To whom I lied? Now they're gone, and I'm hurting them more than ever by looking down on me and seeing what I lied about. When I was a child, it was so hard for me to keep secrets - surprise parties, surprising people to see their family and friends, and taking them somewhere they'll love. People try to get you to give them hints. Being excited is so hard keeping secrets from people I love.

By EarthAngel